Saturday, July 16, 2011
Owyhee Trip
Sunday, June 26, 2011
God Story
It was my prayer that by the end of the school year I would be able to secure a full time teaching position. I had high hopes when I was called in for an interview for a part time teaching position with Cole Valley Christian and a separate interview with a boys ranch just outside of Boise. I thought for sure that the Lord would provide through one of these two positions; even though I wasn't terribly excited about teaching only part time and the boys ranch would have been quite a new challenge. Even still, I had an open mind and was willing to go with it if that was the Lord's provision. I just wanted to be teaching again.
As most of you know, I did not receive either of those positions. What you may not know is that the week following both of those let-downs, I hit a pretty big wall. I was frustrated with God, unsure of his provision, scared of the unknown, and most of all feeling purposeless. My poor husband tried his best to reaffirm me and encourage me, but, truly, nothing he could say or do helped the situation. I just felt so low.
At the end of that week, Mike decided to take the day off of work to help take my mind off of life. We went for a bike ride, went to ice cream and just talked. When Mike leads rafting trips, he always asks the group a question to gage their spiritual state, so he asked me the same question. "If Jesus were in this boat with you, would he be guiding the boat, sitting next to you, or sitting in the hills?" My response, "I know that Jesus is guiding my boat, but I feel like he isn't even in the hills." Later I realized that that was a lesson Jesus was trying to teach me; the difference between relying on what I know to be true verses what I feel to be true.
That same night after our bike ride, I came home to message on my phone. It was the principle of Cole Valley Christian school asking if I would come in for an interview for a FULL time teaching position! She also mentioned that we would be talking about "the spiritual side of this job". For the first time in my life I was nervous to talk about "spiritual things". God and I weren't on good terms and even though I knew what God was trying to teach me, I felt like I was in a dessert without water. I had no idea how I would be able to talk about God or anything good that he was doing in my life.
In the interview, the first thing the man said was, "I have reviewed your application, resume, and letters of recommendation. Honestly, it all looks perfect and we aren't in the business of hiring perfect teachers. Tell me about a time in your life where you have struggled, doubted, and not been on good terms with God." It was in that moment I knew why God had allowed me to struggle so much the previous week. I looked at the man with tears in my eyes and I said, "I'm there right now. I am learning to rely on what I know to be true rather than what I feel to be true. But to be quite honest, it sucks."
The next day I was offered the job! I couldn't help but laugh. God had brought me to a low, I believe, because if I hadn't come to that low, I would have walked into that interview and would have pretended to be the "perfect" teacher. Funny, that's not what they were looking for. (Thankfully).
To add to this God story: It was last spring when I subbed for a teacher at Cole Valley. As I sat at this teacher's desk and looked around the room, I got this feeling in my spirit that that room would become my classroom. At the time I had no reason to think that and chalked it all up to wishful thinking. Yesterday I received my room assignment and NO joke---it is that exact room! God is CRAZY awesome. Sometimes it just takes longer...in his timing and sometimes we just have to be quiet, listen, and choose to follow even when we don't feel like it!
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Love Life Like a Dog
Early this morning Mike and I decided to be lazy and watch a TV show on the laptop while still in bed. To be kind, we let our puppy out to play while we watch the show and we even left the back door open so that she could come in and out as she pleased--big mistake! Scout was gone for a good 15-20 minutes before she leaped onto the bed and kissed us all with her heavily caked mud face! She had found a mud hole on the side of the house and she was covered -thick! While the mess was disastrous (literally throughout the house), all Mike and I could do was laugh. Scout didn't have a care in the world; she wasn't afraid of getting into trouble, or the mess that would come. Instead, she was enjoying life; embracing it and living free; not a worry to be found!
Hmm. I suppose there may be a lesson in this for us. Yes, one lesson is to not let our "child" run free without any guidance or direction, but the second lesson...to love life like a dog!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
"When the Devil Gets the Best of Me"
It was a no from both schools. So there I was, more disappointment and questions flooded my mind. To be honest, I felt quite sorry for myself (and at times still do). I questioned God's goodness, his "will" for my life, and my purpose. Getting older and not moving forward was something I dwelled on and was turning into bitterness deep down inside.
It wasn't until I went to the gym one afternoon that God chose to do a little work on me. When I get stressed and the tension builds up in my chest and head, the best thing to do for me is to run. I can't run far or for long but I run as hard as I can. I blast my music and I focus on running off all the energy built up inside of me. As I was running that day, a song came on by Big & Rich called, "When the Devil Gets the Best of Me".
As I tried to run my problems away this song blared in my ears and it was this particular line that God used to challenge me. "Yeah, the man in the mirror ain't the man that I oughta be. Tell me why can't I see, when the devils got the best of me."
That line didn't take away all my "problems". It wasn't a revelation of God's love for me, but it was a reminder that the Devil can get the best of my mind. Someone once told me this analogy: we are all on this train riding through life. On the left side, we can look out the window and see all the junk in our life; the things we wish were different. Or, we can look out the right side and choose to look at life's beautiful moments. So as I listened to that song, I realized that the Devil had the best of me. He was distracting me, pushing me to look out the left side of the train rather than look out the right side. Even though my life is still not what I had expected and yes, at times, disappointing, I choose to look out the right side of the train and I choose to not allow the Devil to get the best of me.
Monday, May 23, 2011
MRI Update
While this is a time of celebration for answered prayers, God has also used this experience to reshape my heart and give me renewed sensitivity to those who are struggling with cancer. So many people all around the world are facing the worst battle of their lives. As I celebrate clear and negative test results, so many others aren't so lucky.
It is with this good news that I choose to pray for those who haven't heard good news and I encourage all of you to do the same; pray, encourage, donate time and money, and do whatever you can for those who are facing this tough battle!
Monday, May 16, 2011
Early Summer Report
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Content
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Mike's "office"
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Raft Training: Day 1
Friday, April 1, 2011
Church
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Road Trip Lessons and Reminders
Reminders:
1) 3,800 miles on the road is a VERY long time to be crammed in a car with two dogs and a spouse----but we were reminded how good road trips are for the soul! How often do we get to slow down, see the beautiful country and get hours upon hours to talk with your spouse and reflect on life?! I am so thankful for those many memories!
2) Wyoming is a big beautiful, and yes, boring state! Take note, if you ever find yourself driving in the middle of Wyoming, make sure to fill up your gas tank every time you see a gas station; they are few and far between! While the state has beautiful scenery, Mike is convinced that only three people live in the state---it is mostly wide open country :-).
3) We couldn't have wished for a more supportive group of family and friends. Our family and friends are the most loving, supportive and encouraging group of Godly people. We are so thankful to have each of you in our lives. Truly, we would not survive living and serving in ministry here in Idaho without each of you!
4) My husband is actually quite the funny guy! His sense of humor is what attracted him to me in the first place, but as many of you married folk know, the stresses of life hit and having fun with your spouse can often get kicked to the curb. On our trip Mike and I had fun together and I was reminded of how funny of a guy he is! I'm one lucky girl.
Lesson:
1) As many of you know, support raising has become quite difficult for us in recent months. To be honest, in the last month (before this trip) there were times where Mike and I looked at each other and asked the question, "Is this really where God wants us...". But God is faithful and he really used this trip to show us that YES this is where God wants us for this time of our life. While the support raising process is taking longer than we would have hoped....we do feel that this is God's direction for us and we are thankful to feel a peace about it ----even as funds are lacking.
2) Trusting on God is worth it all!
To those we saw, thanks so much for taking time out of your busy schedules to see us and hear how things are going. We love you all so much and miss you....but serving Him is worth it all! Truly.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Road Trip Beauty
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Omaha & Chicago bound
Tomorrow we will hit the road; 17.5 hrs. of driving to be exact...and yes, we are bringing the puppies, so I guess we could round it up to 20 hr. of driving. Crazy! As we drive, we are optimistic and looking to arrive in Cheyenne, WY tomorrow night and arrive in Omaha Friday afternoon. We will be in Omaha from Friday- next Tue. and we will be in Chicago from Wed. the 9th-Sunday the 13th. We already have appointments and coffee dates scheduled with many of you, but if we haven't connected up with you....of course we would love to! Give us an email at ssharpmack@hotmail.com and we will make a date! Who knows how long it will be before our next trip east.
For those in the Omaha area, we will be showing a documentary this Sunday, 6:00pm, at Westside Church. This film captures the incredible journey of a group of cancer survivors that take a Youth Dynamics Adventures trip down the Owyhee river. This film is a professional, moving and inspiring film that everyone should see! Come join us...and we may have some food!
Here is a clip:
http://vimeo.com/7400308
With that said, we will see you all very soon!
Monday, February 28, 2011
The New Look
Let us know what you think of the new look!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Fashion Guide for the Raft Guide
If you follow these simple fashion rules, you will be the biggest stud to raft the waters of Idaho (and perhaps the world!).
Rule #1: Make sure to wear a sexy tight black wetsuit. Purpose: to protect your skin from unwanted freezing cold water from turning unsaid body parts blue.
Rule #2: Make sure to add layers as to be 'fashion forward' in this post-modern world. This over layer is called a splash jacket. Purpose: Similar to the wetsuit, this final layer will guarantee that you look like a professional stud (and not a crazy, adventure addicted maniac) as you raft the snow melted, freezing, yes, freezing cold water in early May.
As you train for your first rafting expedition, be sure to keep us posted and let us know how our fashion tips worked out for you!
Sincerely,
Raft Guide Experts
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Do Something
As I was planning my dream escape from reality, I was reminded of a man. This man walked the earth thousands of years ago and he could have easily run. He could have made his dream escape a reality, and I am sure his dream escape would have been to a place more beautiful than Ireland or New Zealand. He could have ignored all the problems in the world. He could have refused to save the world; to let us be taken over by our lust and sinful desires... yet he didn't. He took action. He believed there was a better plan; a plan full of love and sacrifice. This man, beaten, hungry, bloody, and broken hung on a cross and said, "Forgive them for they know not what they do." He believed that to run away or ignore the world was not the way to change things.
Today I sit with the newspaper in front of me and instead of wanting to run away to Ireland, I choose to be an active Christ follower. I choose to be well informed, to fight for justice, and to help the helpless. Running away or ignoring the issues isn't what Jesus did and it isn't what Christians should do. We need to stand together and be active in this life. Imagine what changes we could see happen in this world if every Christian were to follow Jesus's lead and do something to change the world! What will you do?
"For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him." John 3:17
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Prayer
I am reminded of other major religions that are faithful to the act of praying. They pray for extended periods of time, often stopping their daily routine to pray before their Gods. -They must believe or they wouldn't devote so much time to the action. They are fully devoted. It is with this thought that makes me wonder how devoted am I? How devoted are western, American Christians, who have direct access to the one and only God? Do we truly believe in the power of prayer in our lives?
Perhaps this is just an internal struggle that I am having, but it makes me wonder how many Christians are out there that are faithful believers and yet, are dry and full of doubt when it comes to their prayer life and they are too scared to fully admit it to themselves or others.
Prayer. Another challenge from God. "Sheila, do you truly believe, as you speak to me, that I am listening and I am doing (and will do) much more than you could ever imagine or request?"
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Refocus: Part II
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Refocus: Part I
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Just don't Feel like it...
Lesson: Your purpose in life is to love whole heartily and to serve others no matter how they treat you, what your social status is, or how "important" you think you are. Serve others and when you are tired of serving others, get up and continue to serve because your service might be the only representation of Jesus that they will ever come in contact with.
Yes, I know, what a simple lesson that can be read over and over in the Bible...but honestly, coming from a girl whose "service" radar reads very low, this lesson has been beyond difficult to implement! It is easy to serve others that think the world of you or who are in desperate physical need of help. It is even easy to do a little thing here and there to make you feel extra generous, but what about the days when you just don't FEEl like it. All you want to do is go to Starbucks, read your book while listening to your iPod to block out the needs around you, and then you walk out the door putting on your sunglasses to cover your eyes from anything you don't want to see. ...and God is asking, "Did you serve the frazzled waitress in Starbucks? Or what about the mother that was sitting in the corner drinking her coffee and wondering how she was going to find the energy to deal with her 5 children while her husband is gone on another business trip?" Yet, so often we continue to walk out that door, turn on our car radio and drowned out the soft whispers that prompt us to go back in.
Unfortunately, so often that is exactly what I do; I ignore all the service opportunities around me because I just don't feel like serving. I think I deserve a day just for me...what a lie that Satan has infiltrated into our culture; "a day just for me".
The way Jesus has called us to serve others is continual, fluid, never ceasing...even when we just don't feel like it.
"If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even the pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect." ~Matt. 5:46-48